A Happier New Year.

As I sit here right now my beautiful little miracle fast asleep beside me. My heart is so very warm and a glow with love, joy and peace. This sweet little being has found his way into the broken shattered dark shadows of my weary heart. While my heart will always have spaces that won't ever heal, this little boy is mending this Mamas soul. How will I ever be able to explain to him how very precious he truly is to me, to us. Such a blessing is he, such a healing presense is he. I am totally lost in the love I feel for my son, and I will continue to lose myself until the day I die.

My last post was harsh, I know. But I was feeling so upset and dissapointed in my not recognizing that not only do I behold this living child on this holiday meant for children, but that I have not forgotten my daughter. I just found it heartbreaking to not have heard myself say her name on that day, nor anyone else. I felt as if she was a forgotten little spirit. I am really good on being hard on myself sometimes, and I was when I realized what I had forgot.

If it was not for our sweet little Birdie, this little man would probably not be here right now, today. Thus, I must always remember my little bird.

I am feeling very optimistic for this new year, very optimistic and full of motivation to get my artwork going again. I am going to push myself to work out of my "safe" mode of artmaking via photographs. The time has come for me to dive back into where I was when I graduated from art school and take some risks. This may all sounds very abstract to you, but it all makes perfect sense in my own mind. My first new adventure, crazy quilting & embroidering on them! But before I can get started with that I have to learn how to embroider! So, my first purchase of the year, shall be a beginning embroidery book. Happy New Year to me!

I want to extend my wishes to you all for a happy new year...
My wish is that you are able to find a sense of peace even if it is only small of for a short time, may love fill you and overflow from your heart, may you be blessed with new beginnings and new life.

With so much love,
Erin

Birdie and Bunny's Mama