Not Sure About My Feelings

So that holiday last week really messed with my head. My deepest sadness came right back to the surface very easily. I worked it through as I had to, of course there is no other choice.

On saturday we had a nice lunch with Matty's cousin and husband, then they came over to see our place and look at our pictures of Birdie. It was so great to see them, to have them enter into our "space" and see Birdie in all of the photos we are fortunate to have and share.

Today, right now I am not sure about how I am feeling. I just feel blah....like nothing. Emotionless. I am pretty sure I know why. This time of the month my Rock And Roll work from home job gets me stressed out. I hate that my job makes me get to this emotionless place, but its only for a week so its not all that bad.

For those of you who don't know, I work for a small knitting company...and I design, layout and research (writers) for the Knitting Newsletter we put out once a month. FYI, if any of you are knitters and you want to submit an article or original pattern let me know and I can give you more info (we pay a small stipend).

Anyways, I didn't want to go on about my job. But then again, its on my mind....and the only reason I can devote as much time to it as I do is because I don't have my Birdie here.

I don't have my Birdie here.

A more in depth, more interesting and meaningful post is coming soon. As soon as I get my brain back.