Every Moment IS An Opportunity to Love
This I do believe. Even when my life has gone on without loving my girl, she reminds me that every EVERY moment is an opportunity to love. Tonight, I had the rare luxury of reading one of my favorite blogs MereMortal and there Leigh was speaking to each moment as an opportunity to love, reminding me once again to stay in the moment, to love, to share love, to give love, to show love.
I feel this month slipping through my fingers, like the ending pages of a book, slowly and carefully I flip the last 2 pages. I think about all of the missed opportunities to love my girl in the flesh, and I pack all these moments, all the missed time, all the missed memories and I pour it ALL into my love for my sweet boy. I want to fill him up with all of the love that naturally pours forth from me for him, and then all the love that his big sister has missed earthside.
Holdyn is the greatest opportunity to love, he is all, he is everything, he is total and complete love.
As I watch him grow everyday, I see his understanding of love. How he interacts with his Papa and I. The way he snuggles in to me, letting me know that it is time to nurse. The way he places a gentle hand upon my breast to feel the warmth of my skin. I can't get enough of my boy. He brings such joy, such deep aching love to my heart.
Every Moment IS An Opportunity To Love
Alas, here we are on this 30th day of March 2010 on what would have been Birdie's 3rd year of life, her 3rd year of living and learning to love the world. Her month is nearly over and come April I will begin the countdown again.
4 comments:
Beautiful post, Erin. So true.
xo
Sometimes I feel a little bad that my new son has the burden of me trying to make up for all of the lost times with his sister. But I don't think you can over-love, so it's ok.
Another year.....so strange when I remember it being so fresh once for all of us.
I love how you are sooo full of love, it's such a good thing.;) Your love for both your babies is heartwarming, I can feel it way over here.;) Although Birdie is not right here with us she is always there for you and us to love along with your dear Holdyn. Hugs....
sometimes I think I indulge my son & nieces/nephews because we lost Sara - that's not a bad thing, is it?
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