My Nearly 9 Month Old Miracle (Part 1)
There are really and truly no words to express how deeply I love my son.
Since the day of his birth, I have been blessed to spend and every hour of every day with Holdyn. To be able to witness his life in every moment is something that I cherish so very deeply. To be a constant witness to his milestones, and to the simple nature that is he is, this is all I want from life right now. I have been given this beautiful gift, this miracle, this sweet and already empathetic child and I cannot even think to be without him for more than a few minutes. (might sound hard to believe to some, but I just can't get to that place that says it's OK to leave him for an hour or 2)
Everyday is such a blessing. Everyday, I awake to my son beside me...to his bright, beaming beautiful smile that says, hello Mama!
Sweet, sweet Holdyn.
His personality is strong. A very serious boy, a very tender boy, a happy little boy who gently rests his hand upon my breast as he nurses. He is just so beautiful, I am so damn smitten with him that it makes me cry.
He is my light, he is my guide. This little child of mine is guiding my new path in life. He guides my way as his Mama and friend.
I love being able to watch his delight in life. He loves nature, trees, flowers...birds. I am proud to share in his fondness of these things. I hope that the wonder of nature to be an ever present and continuous interest in is life.
Sweet, sweet Holdyn.
My dear son, I love you so very very much.
4 comments:
You are such a terrific Mommy and person. I know that the two of you must have so much fun together during the day, and that your sweet alone time togeter must be what he looks forward to everytime he opens his eyes in the morning. The world sure sounds better for having the two of you (and your hubby I'm sure) in it together walking/crawling hand in hand. Or hand on breast as the case may be.
Amazing. You are a very talented writer. To be able to convey how you feel is exceptional. I enjoy reading your blog. And since I care for women who have losses, I enjoy watching you enjoy your Son all the more. I wish every Mother could have a happy ending.
I know the feeling of not wanting to be away with your child even for a short while. I've had much less time this time around to just sit and adore my new baby. I miss that. The first time, it felt like time was frozen for a good while. And now, with Dio, it's just whizzing by.
what a blessed boy ! I understand not wanting to leave your baby, and if people want to think I am over protective, I guess that is their problem :o) I've never experienced a loss like yours, but he idea of even leaving my 6 year old for a couple of hours is on a "must" basis, and that happens a lot less than most people think that it has to.
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