Babymooning.

Our home is so peaceful in these days of late. We are rejoicing over our little Holdyn, each cry, each coo, yawn and stretch is a miracle.

I'm slow to post the birth story.....in the meantime here are a few more photos.







Thank you all so much for your lovely words and warm wishes...we appreciate them so much.

Love,
Erin & Matt

HE IS HERE! HE IS HERE! I CAN"T BELIEVE THAT HE IS HERE!!!!!!!!

Words cannot describe our joy....it's overflowing...Oh My I cannot believe it!

Holdyn Gene was born at 8:29am on October 3, 2008!
He weighed 6lbs 14oz, 20 1/2 inches long.
Our hope has arrived and he is gorgeous.
Our hearts are full, we are SO in love!














MORE PHOTOS & BIRTH STORY SOON.

36 Week Belly & Baby Bunny Baby Carrier Done!





Tonight I finished the Mei Tei carrier Yipee!!! It was hard work only because my back started to hurt many times from all the pressing and pinning. The back pain was SO worth it! I can't believe that I made this myself, it's so adorable and perfect for Bunny. Notice the front panel fabric, it has little birds on it!

I AM SOOOOOOOOOOOOO READY!

OK, so I only just on the cusp of 36 weeks, but tomorrow is 36 WEEKS!

Yesterday while driving to our hypnotherapist, I became overwhelmed with feeling that this baby is going to come much earlier than everyone thinks. Of course these feelings could just be excitement, but maybe not. I have been visualizing and talking to Bunny about October 10 as being the date that labor begins...a quick and easy labor and birth, 5-6 hrs in length. It's been part of our self-hypnosis for birth the visualize the labor and birth. Then last night at our hypnotherapist session, I asked if we could do some labor and birth work, and the labor I envisioned then was even more fast and beautiful. Maybe this all sounds a little silly, but I really don't give a crap! It's getting me through this pregnancy with a healthy mind, and it has given me such confidence that I can do this, that things will be different this time.

We had a pre-nantal apt this morning, my weight seems to have finally slowed down...I gained only 2 pounds in 2 weeks (compared to when I was pregnant with Birdie, it was like 6-10 pounds each visit!). So, I feel good about that and I think it's because I have been getting so much more exercise with this pregnancy. I am still getting to the Y 3 times a week, on the elliptical for 30-50 mins and 30-60 min walks each day with Macy! It just feels so great to get out and exercise! Oh, and Bunny is head down, slightly posterior (Birdie was completely posterior -hence the long labor), so I am sitting and rocking on my birthing ball, and soon will begin to crawl around on all fours much like Macy to turn this baby to anterior!!!

I am in the process of sewing a Mei Tai baby carrier, I am nearly done, all that is left are the straps! This is really exciting for me because for the longest time I have been wanting to get back into sewing, and I had lost my confidence in my ability to do it, but this carrier is coming out so nice and adorable! I hope to finish it up this weekend, and will post photos.

The other thing that I have been doing...is photographing Birdie's things. All that we have acquired and been given as gifts for her that has lived in her co-sleeper for the last year and a half. I had been putting this off, as I knew it would be hard for me/us to remove these things from the co-sleeper. However, last weekend Matt encouraged me to begin the process, and so I did. I hope to also finish that this weekend, as long as the sun cooperates. It's a very cathardic process, I have to say that if you have things that you too have acquired for your angel babe...perhaps documenting it can bring you some healing and peace too?

We finally wrapped up our birthing plan, after much talk about it...between ourselves, the birthing center and our midwives. We got that into the midwives today. I also found out that I can start taking evening primrose oil, next week I can start blue cohosh and then go from there... meaning that hopefully these things will help my cervix to ripen enough to invite some nice contractions....and then....labor!

Now, if we can just get the rest of the cloth diapers and covers we need, we will really be ready. Everything else is small potatoes at this point, as I know when this baby is born we are going to be surrounded by many who can help us with cooking and cleaning. =)

35 Weeks Now, Belly Photo From 34 Weeks



I have a lot to say, however it will have to wait. I am totally exhausted from walking Macy!

More to come, I promise!

Long Since Forgotten Little Ones...

Do You Have Any Daughters?

It's a really beautiful night here, cool enough to take a long walk with Macy. So, that is just what I did. Midway through our walk we came upon 2 lovely little girls, they saw me and Macy from across the street and they waited to see if I was going to walk their way so I did. At first one of the little girls approached cautiously, she asked if Macy was a Pit, I explained no she wasn't and that while she seemed excited she would not bite her. She was still cautious, but curious about Macy, she pat Macy's head and then...

Out of nowhere, she asked me "Do you have any daughters?"

Wow, I thought to myself, this is one intuitive little girl, or this is just a very strange coincedence. I was wearing no evidence of Birdie, I often don't wear my Birdie jewelery when I excercise. Anyways, I replied to her gently, taking into account her young age (10 or 11 yrs old I guessed). I said, yes, I have a daughter and she is not with us here, then I sort of clumsily said she is up there (pointing to the sky). Then she asked, "How old is she" I said, she would be one and a half. Then she asked "Your going to have a baby?", yes I said, I am. She continued to look upon me with curiousity, I didn't want to make her feel uncomfortable so I just said to both the girls, well have a good night, Bye.

They both responded with a nice goodbye. They were so sweet.

Then, I got not even a yard away and the one girl yelled gently, "Wait! What did you say about your daughter?" So, I said, well...when she was born she did not make it, her spirit flew away up into the universe. She said, "Oh, so you don't like to talk about it?" Oh no, I said. We talk about her all the time, I don't mind at all...thank you for asking, it's really nice that you did.

Then I don't really remember what happened, she smiled and turned away...I think she said something like thank you, in response to my telling her I thought it was nice she asked me what she did.

How strange though, a girl I have never seen before out of the blue asking me if I have any daughters? Maybe the dream I had last week about giving birth to this baby is a peek into the future? Yes, I had a dream that I gave birth to this child (a screaming, breathing beautiful live baby!), and upon a closer look, we discovered the child was a girl!

A Family Self-Portrait From 32 Weeks


Birdie is in this photo, only I am standing right in front of the photo of her!

Our Hope For Our Subsequent Birth

Let me just start by saying that I know this is a very touchy, fragile subject for so many of us out there. So, if you think that it might be too much for you to read what I have to say here, please don't force yourself. I have been having so many days of feeling positive (not to be mistaken for naive), that perhaps my getting out these feeling in writing can persuade another loss Mama who is blessed with her subsequent babe to find some sense of renewed hope.

It sounds and feels so strange to me to be able to say that I have made peace with my last labor and birth experience. As you know I have written, thought about and talked extensively about what happened. What was meant to be a gentle birthing experience full of positive vibes and love, turned into a nightmare full of fear and horror.

I have done much soul searching to really try to be fair to my body and mind for this upcoming birth. I feel I must take back our dream to have a safe and comfortable birth experience (and I DO feel very safe at our birthing center). It is only fair for us and this miracle whom we love to call "Bunny". With this pregnancy I have been blessed to work from home, as I did when I was pregnant with Birdie, leaving me a good amount of ME time. Time to read, write, work on photo stuff etc. All of this time to myself has also allowed me to be able to think and work out a lot of my fears, fears that I had just become really tired of having. Holding within me so much negative was getting in the way of me seeing the future, wanting to see the future, to envision how things could and WILL be much different this time, for this baby.

I really do have a good feeling about what is to come, I have to. To dwell and be stuck in that darkness only drags me down to a place I don't want to go to, a place that I have worked through and made peace with. So, I guess what I am saying is that I have allowed myself to move forward, given myself permission to say "YES, I CAN DO THIS!" As I have echoed before, it is only fair to me, my body and this baby to see a good and positive, much different outcome for this pregnancy.

Slowly I had been working my way towards these feelings, but I knew that I also needed the help of a professional to really tackle the deep subconscious stuff. So, last week we (Matt and I) sought out the help of a Hypnotherapist. Our session was very intense and got into the details (nooks and crannies) of Birdie's labor and birth....it was emotional beyond words. However, we were so glad that we went, as it has opened up our hearts and minds that much more to allow positive messages and feelings for this next birth.

Again I also have to say how incredibly helpful the Hypnobabies class is, this class is ALL about being positive about pregnancy and birth, it's just been invaluable to us. I can't recommend Hypnotherapy for Mamas and Papas like us enough, its invaluable for the mind and body.

I really hope that I'm not making myself sound naive here, I know all too well how fast things can change, but I just don't want to linger there in that negative space. I want and NEED to be able to enjoy each day that I am blessed to carry this baby within my womb, just as I did with Birdie. I must be positive so that my emotional state carries me through to a positive labor and birth. So, YES, I AM positive about this pregnancy, I am full of HOPE for this babies birth. This is all not to say that it has been easy to let go of the past (not forget it, no we shall never forget!), of course it hasn't been, but the joy and hope that this baby has brought to us has pushed us to want to live in a re-newed state of hope and love, for ourselves, for Bunny...and our sweet little Birdie who watches over us.

Telling Our Story, On Story Corps



Yesterday we took part in Story Corps. For those of you who don't know what it is, I suggest that you look into it, and see if perhaps they will be coming to a city or town near you. To tell our stories is so important, to talk about our babies, to share their short lives is so important. So anyways, yesterday was the day of our 1 hr reservation to talk about our life, and Birdie and the present. It was a 40 minute conversation, and Matt interviewed me...his questions were so thoughtful and perfect. We have been long time listeners to the friday morning Story Corps on our local NPR station, when we heard they were coming so close to us we knew it was something we had to take part in and so we did. Of course it was incredibly emotional at times during our conversation, but it felt so good to know that our story/Birdie's Story and Bunny's story will be heard by others and archived at the library of congress. What an exceptional opportunity.

I am going to try to figure out how to get the audio file onto the blog so you can hear our Story Corps conversation.

True Love.

photo by: JPasson Photography

31 Weeks With Bunny

I feel like we have reached a new level of hope at 31 weeks, I can't put my finger on just what it is that brings me to this feeling. Maybe it's the Hypnobabies class and the affirmations I have been listening to obsessively on a daily basis. Or maybe, I have truly reached a place of peace and confidence within myself. Whatever it is, I welcome it and it feels good. I know that getting to this place can be very hard for others who have experienced loss, I hope that maybe my ability to feel like I do can give someone else some strength to allow confidence and hope into their own heart.

Yesterday we did something that I wish that we had done while pregnant with Birdie. Take a look right HERE.

Yes, we had a pregnancy photo session and it was absolutely amazing. We had so much fun, and never felt that we couldn't just be ourselves. The photographer that we went to is such a compassionate woman, who is truly gifted, her name is Jessie Passon. I must give her a plug here on the blog, because she takes such lovely images for so many, but also because she is a volunteer photographer for the Now I Lay Me Down To Sleep organization (that is why I chose her to do this for us, she knows how important this pregnancy is.)

This week I will post one of the images she took of us, as she is giving me permission to do so. =)

In the meantime, here are some photos that I took back in March-April. They're medium format photos that I finally got around to having processed and scanned. Some are from our trip to Virginia in March, some are more random. enjoy.

welcome sweet little miracle!

There is a blog that I have been following almost daily, the blog is Julia's at Won't Fear Love. Today when I went to check in on her and her subsequent pregnancy, there was such good news to be found! Her sweet little miracle has arrived, safely. Please take a moment to read her post, and wish her and her family good wishes!

I am beside myself with joy and tears of happiness and relief for her and her family.

30 Weeks With Bunny

Holy shit!



Not that I am in disbelief that we have made it this far, because in my heart I truly want to believe that this baby is going to make it. It's just that in the very early weeks of this pregnancy I was on such shaky ground. So unsure and so very scared. Somehow I have been able to work through those feelings, not that they do not linger, they do. They are just not at the forefront. I am really making an effort to be positive and so far it seems to be working for me, for us.




So, here I sit, 30 weeks pregnant. As of yesterday's Midwife appointment (we are going every 2 weeks now), my glucose test was great as was my iron level, I only gained nearly 2 pounds in 2 weeks and baby Bunny's head is DOWN! All good news. There isn't a big concern about my weight, but there is a little bit of one since I have already gained nearly 34 pounds. To counter too much more gaining I have been diligent about going to the Y 3 times a week and using the elliptical for 40-50 minutes, and I have still been walking Ms. Macy 2-3 times a day for at least 30 minutes at a time (sometimes longer if it's not too hot!). It is still feeling so good to work out, and get the amount of exercise that I am getting. I think that I have more energy at this time than I had with Birdie...maybe, I could just be making that up.




This next week is going to be interesting, we are watching my parents dog (for a week), and he is just over a year old. He is a little bit naughty at times, you have to be really firm with him to get his full attention (he's also a little bit goofy). Anyways, he is here and Macy is here and here am I. Matt is on a mini tour with his band, so I am pretty much house bound until sunday. I'm very thankful though that Macy has a good friend in Booda (my parents dog), they love each other very much. Anyways, I am rambling here.



p.s. the Hypnobabies class ROCKS! I wasn't sure how receptive I would be to the self-hypnosis, but I AM and its SO INTENSE! Using this, and going to a Hypnotherapist to work out our birth fears/fear triggers is really going to help us.

Proposal Submitted!

Well, it's taken me more than a year, but I have finally gotten my shit together (thanks to the lovely Eliza and her expert writing help!). Yes, I have submitted a proposal to have a show and I am feeling so DAMN good about it. Maybe now my wish to have a showing of our photos, and the new photos I have been developing (from the hospital photos) will come true before or very near Birdie's 2nd birthday. It certainly would be amazing and so important to my family. I am also putting together a list of other galleries and some museums to submit to. My goal is to get this proposal out to as many places as I can in the next few weeks. If your interested, here is the final draft!


I believe that photography plays an important role in capturing pivotal moments in one's life and in others’ lives. For many, the first photographs of their newborn will become the most joyful and treasured of family photographs.


For some, those first moments, those most happy and life-changing moments will never exist. Instead the first impression of their newborn child will be filled with silence and tears. Neonatal loss, or the death either before or during the birth of a newborn, is specific to my own personal history, and in the work that I am proposing to show I document the stillbirth of my first child. Upon waking from an emergency surgery to find that we had lost our daughter my world and existence were crushed beyond what words can describe, distilled into imagery and impression alone. Within my shock I somehow requested that my parents bring me my camera. While of course I was devastated by my daughter's unexpected death, I was compelled to photograph my child, my husband, and myself. I didn’t give it a second thought. To me it felt like the right thing to do, to create and document the only memories we could ever have of our brief time as a family, and later on these photographs provided the raw material for some new images I went on to create. In September 2007 I began photographing myself, and my husband at a time when the intensity of our grief was beginning to transform. I sandwiched the images together creating portraits that reveal a struggle of conflicting emotions that are just beneath the surface, and through the same process combined images of my husband and myself with our daughter, literally making my own memories of our emotions at the time.


These photographs, although obviously personal and intense, hold so much importance for so many, because "each year in the United States, out of an estimated 4.4 million confirmed pregnancies, there are more than half a million miscarriages, twenty-nine thousand stillbirths and thirty nine thousand infant deaths under 1 year of age." This leaves an estimated 568,000 families forever changed by this terrible experience each year, but somehow that is something our society seems to overlook as a whole. Post-mortem photography, once the norm, has now fallen out of fashion. I believe that there is still a place for this, depending on each individual family's feelings on the matter, especially when you are talking about the death of a newborn, whose family won't have any other pictures by which to remember a child.


Family Portrait is an exploration of the invisibility and denial of grief in American society. Why do we hide from grief, from fully feeling and processing our own most painful memories, and shy away from the grief of others? I ask this question specifically when the death we hide from is that of a neonate, the most unimaginable and tragic but paradoxically also the most unacknowledged of losses.


Through these photographs I seek to make a meaningful contribution to the much-needed discourse in the artistic community about death in today's society, as well as raising the awareness for the many "invisible" deaths that occur every year in this country and around the world. Showing these photographs at A.P.E. has great relevance to the community, as through our experience my husband and I have met many local families who have been touched by the death of a newborn. The short lives of the children of families touched by a loss like ours need not remain invisible, and our very real and overwhelming grief deserves recognition; it is my hope that this exhibit will not only move and speak to families like mine, but make people whose lives have not been touched by such a loss have more compassion for friends and family of theirs whose lives may be.


In addition to getting this proposal out into the hands of gallery directors, I have also found re-newed inspiration for continuing this lifelong photographic project. A while ago, I planned to photograph every single object we have that Birdie's flesh made contact with (the monkey onesie we dressed her in, her little stuffed froggy, the hat and mitts I knit for her etc.), and ALL of the objects that we have acquired since she passed (and that's A LOT!). For a short time, my desire to actually go through with the project faded, but I have been re-inspired, and I hope in the next few weeks with Matt's help to get this project off the ground. I will keep you posted about it, as I will probably take some preliminary/test shots with my digital camera before actually loading my medium format and burning through a lot of film (something I am totally excited for, I love the look of medium format photographs, so beautiful and elegant).

Birdie, this is all for you my love. You are my true inspiration, I want to make something beautiful for you and about you everyday, always....forever!

So I was just over on the Mothering.com website when I saw that in this month's issue there is an article about what a stir Ricki Lake has caused with her "Business Of Being Born" film. Now, I haven't commented in a very, very long time about this subject for obvious reasons, but I have to chime in here. I understand (because I can remember the naive person I used to be) the very alluring and almost sexiness of the homebirthing world. Yes, it looks and feels and sounds so lovely and romantic almost, and is made to sound all the more that was by so many who are "A Part Of That World, and Way of Thinking". While I do feel that she has and had every right to make the film that she did, I also feel that it could almost become a dangerous tool of some kind. After all, she is a high profile celebrity who had a "beautiful" homebirth, that resulted in a live child! Women look up to her, women see this achievement and maybe to some degree are influenced against their (perhaps) better judgement to then have a homebirth, or "attempt" one. Now, I know that everyone has every right to decide for themselves, I do not mean to trample all over that. I just feel that it's a little dangerous what Ricki is doing...I mean because of all the hoopla, the medical community is now fighting homebirthing mothers even harder! The line of trust is being drawn even further and further apart. So, what will this mean for the next "former" homebirthing mother like myself?

The totally open minded woman who chose to trust her homebirth midwives with her life and that of her baby's? What happens when that next birthing woman is at home, and things become serious and the baby is in distress and they have to transport to the hospital? What happens when she shows up to the hospital and is perhaps not taken as seriously (than if she was a regular birthing paient) because the staff KNOWS she was "attempting" a homebirth and all went completely wrong?

I worry so very much for all those mothers for who this will happen to, and yes, it will happen. I was a statistic, and there will be others. I can only imagine the road Ms. Lake would be on right now if her homebirth went very wrong and her dear child passed. She would probably be a very loud advocate for all if US! Bereaved mothers everywhere would be seen and heard FINALLY! Not to mention that the danger that homebirth can bring would be exposed. Yes, it is dangerous, DON'T try and tell me otherwise because you will only piss me off. Birth can also be dangerous in hospital too, yes this I know, don't preach to me about that either.

What do you think about what Ms. Lake is doing? Does it ruffle your feathers?

By the way, I am doing well. Baby Bunny is doing well too. Last night he/she was flipping around, kicking punching with great force! This Bunny Rabbit is very rambunctious! If I seem like I am holding it together pretty well, well I am. Honestly like I have said before I just cannot dwell on the past and get lost in the negative. For me and for Bunny I must stay positive and be optimistic, even with all I now know. Matt and I started our Hynobabies class this week, for those of you who don't know I 100% recommend it for birth preparation. Already I feel just how much this class is going to empower me, allow me to TRULY relax and just allow my body to do what it is designed to do, and allow this baby be born. It's a 5 week course, and it comes with a good amount of self-hypnosis Cd's that I am supposed to listen to every day. I am obsessed with the "Pregnancy Affirmations" CD (I'm listening right now!), which has 150 positive pregnancy and birth messages on it (and the woman's voice saying them isn't annoying!). There is also a "fear release" cd, as far as I can tell that should help immensely for being able to let go some of my (and Matt's) subconscious fears about birth and Birdies birth. (It has been recommended that we also see a Hypnotherapist a few times to tap into that part of our subconscious minds, I'm just trying to find the right person)

*Hypnobabies is not the same as the Hypnobirth program/classes. From what I understand after reading many reviews/comparisions of the 2 programs, it is much more involved/detailed, and offers more self hypnosis CD's that are produced more professionally than the Hypnobirth program's Cd's. Again the class we are doing is Hypnobabies and I 100% recommend it!*

Check out there website and the birth stories that can be found there

The Fire Has Been Lit, and I Am Off And Running!

Here is a 2nd Draft, thank you so much Eliza & Sara for your expert writing help! With your gracious assistance this proposal is shaping up to be something so much stronger than I could have written on my own. I am still open to critiques, so keep em' coming!



I believe in the important role photography plays in capturing pivotal moments in one's life and in other's lives. For many, the first photographs of their newborn will become the most joyful and treasured of family photographs.


For some, those first moments, those most happy and life-changing moments will never exist. Instead the first impression of their newborn child will be filled with silence and tears. Neonatal loss, or the death either before or during the birth of a newborn, is specific to my own personal history and in the work that I am proposing to show I document the stillbirth of my first child. Following the death of my daughter I requested that my parents bring me my camera. While of course I was devastated by my daughter's unexpected death, I was compelled to photograph my child, with myself and my husband, didn’t give it a second thought. To me it felt like the right thing to do, to create the only memories we could of our brief time as a family.


These photographs, although obviously personal and intense, hold so much importance for so many, because "each year in the United States, out of an estimated 4.4 million confirmed pregnancies, there are more than half a million miscarriages, twenty-nine thousand stillbirths and thirty nine thousand infant deaths under 1 year of age." Leaving an estimated 568,000 thousand families devastated by this terrible experience each year, something that our society seems to overlook as a whole. Post-mortem photography, once the norm, has now fallen out of fashion, and I believe that there is still a place for this, depending on each individual family's feelings on the matter, but especially when you are talking about the death of a newborn, whose family don't have any other pictures by which to remember their beloved child.


Family Portrait is an exploration of the invisibility and denial of grief in American society. Why do we hide from grief, from fully feeling and processing our own most painful memories, and shy away from the grief of others? I ask this question specifically when the death we hide from is that of a neonate, the most unacceptable and unacknowledged of deaths.


Through these photographs I seek to make a meaningful contribution to the much-needed discourse in the artistic community about death in today's society, as well as raising the awareness for the many "invisible" deaths that occur every year in this country and around the world. Showing these photographs at A.P.E. has great relevance to the community, as through our experience my husband and I have met many local families who have been touched by the death of a newborn. The short lives of the children of families touched by a loss like ours need not remain invisible, and our very real and overwhelming grief deserves recognition; it is my hope that this exhibit will not only move and speak to families like mine, but make people whose lives have not been touched by such a loss have more compassion for friends and family of theirs whose lives may be.



p.s. Eliza & Sara, would you be interested in helping me with my artist statement (already written, needs some work) and Bio for the book I am applying to have published?

Lighting A Creative Fire Under My Own Ass!

So, by now you know that I am trying to get the photographs from when we were in the hospital into the space of a gallery. Well, it has been so slow going as the pain of writing has hindered me. For whatever reason I just get stuck when it comes to the "artists statement", and in this case the "Exhibition Proposal". I have re-discovered a local gallery, that has just moved and is sort of starting anew just one town away from me. It's not always looked on well to just email a gallery if they are not actively seeking artists submissions, even so, I contacted this gallery and found out that they are actively seeking submissions for there next year of shows. So, here I sit slowly moving out of my writers block with a very rough proposal draft. I hope that you are not sick of my asking for opinions, but girls I need your help once again.

Here are some basic elements that I have tried to slip into the proposal.

*Your ideas, purpose or concept,
*Why you would like to exhibit at this Gallery,
* What benefit or relevance it would have to the local community

If you can, can you give me your critique if I am close at all with this proposal?

I believe in the important role photography plays in capturing important moments in one's life and in other's lives. For many, the first photographs of a newborn, perhaps their own child will become the most joyful and treasured family photographs that will be reveled over year after year, and passed from generation to generation with pride.

For some, those first moments, those most happy and life changing moments will never exist. Instead the first look and feel of their newborn child will be filled with silence and tears. I am speaking of the death of a child, in my own history and specific to the work in which I am proposing to show I am speaking of the stillbirth of my first born child. Following the death of my daughter I requested my camera be brought to me. What followed was a very natural desire to capture my daughters pureness, and beauty. Even though my heart felt as though it had been violently ripped from my being and a dark sadness had taken hold of my soul....I was compelled to photograph my child. I never gave it a second thought, and nobody told me that I could not do what felt like the right thing.

These photographs although obviously personal and intense hold so much importance for so many. They hold importance for all the 1,000's of other families who have suffered the loss of their children, they also, I believe can and should become important for our society as a whole. Important in that our fear of death and dying has become so quieted and tucked away since the "death" of post-mortem photography as the cultural "norm".

Family Portrait is an exploration of the invisibility and denial of grief in our American society. Why do we hide from grief, from our own pain and sorrow, and the pain and sorrow of others? Why do we as a culture encourage this behavior in each other? What are we ashamed of? I ask this question specifically when the death we hide from is that of a child, the most unacceptable of deaths.

Through these photographs I seek to flush out the much needed conversation about death that is laking in our society today. As well as raising the awareness for the many "invisible" deaths that occur every year in this country and around the world. Showing these photographs at A.P.E., has great relevance as there are many local families who have been touched by the death of a child. The short lives of our children need not be silenced anymore, our invisible grief needs to and should be seen.


What do you think? Does it get to the point at all? Do I make a good enough argument to show in the gallery? Do I make the subject worthy enough with my writing?

HELP!